Turns out, by the time school was over, the part of my soul that wanted to focus on this project had been sucked out of me, and shot into a wall, where it promptly died. I had to do a lot of writing projects, and a lot of corrections on writing projects. All the writing removed by interest in actually writing creatively or for fun. And to top that off, I have opted for more classes that have hefty amounts of writing as a fundamental aspect of them. One of them however, is a creative writing class, and I like forwards to the process of having my contents reviewed by peers to see what people like about my writing style, and what doesn't work. This is all to say I don't have a project update, besides that I had another cool idea for a game, that will never happen, and I should probably stop having cool ideas, because I am incapable of doing anything, and it's really just sort of pathetic. Sometimes I wonder if this project should even be a game, I've come to realize it may not be the best path, and that's been troubling. I've considered a webcomic format, but I just don't really know. I still plan to write this, at least to general completion. The idea now is that I need to prove to myself I can actually finish...anything at all, that I'm not just a sad sap fool. And then if it's cool maybe I'll see about getting it into game form. Being depressed is hard, and I hope to eventually look back on all of this and think "wow, how stupid I was for feeling this way" as if "this way" isn't a 10 year development project by my brain for funny kicks. Anyways I started a much smaller writing project, I'm actually well into it, and it's given me a few ideas for Jokes in Vellar Project. I also still chip at world building ideas that hopefully one day come to fruition and don't mock me in a text document. I will see this project done, one way or another, or die trying. Does the afterlife have internet? Can I finish a project in hell? Is the devil a good peer review partner?
It is paramount I update this every now and then, or else I fear I will forget and lose the will to. Not because my will to see this project to completion has died, but I will forget about this blog! I'm considering switching over to something like Blogger since I really like the UI of their more simple themes, and it would be easier to read through in the future. If I did that, I would certainly update here for the no one that reads at this time because I don't publically advertise this project. But then future people could see when I left here. Had some good ideas recently I've been writing as disconnected ideas to see how they work on their own, and then to eventually be sewn to the finish project. Also wrapping up on general character works that I've been doing to try and guide myself more on how I'm writing these people, and how they fit in their place in this world. Life is stil busy with school, though Nightreign has been dropped til the DLC comes out. Some of my classes end soon, so I'll have more time, though I also look for work. Hoping to do one more update before the year ends, and in that update, provide some actualy dialogue or other contents that are readable, and then I think I'll start talking about this prohject more to people. Until then, stream Brave Little Abacus! Stay safe, stay well.
Last night around 2am I posted a new music release. I'm glad to finally have it done, and I want to now shift full focus back on Project Vellar as my main creative project. Story scripting is underway, and while it hasn't gotten to far, due to my picky mind and inability to decide what I want, I'm happy with the current progress. My life has otherwise recently been taken over with school and Elden Ring Nightreign, and as this summer semester come to an end, and the new semester begins soon, I can gladly say my associates is getting close to completion. One place I've neglected with this project is art. I am an artist of the word (very modest) and of music (gimme a break), not one of drawing or placing color and concepts onto canvas, digital or real. That's not to say I dislike doing it, I just suck at it. I'm hoping to maybe take some shots at it over the next year. Yes year, games aren't made in a day, or at least not ones like this. I'm planning everything long term. On another dev note, I recently relistened to Silver Mt. Zions "He has Left us Alone" album. There's more name but it's long. While listening to the track "Sit in the Middle of Three Galloping Dogs" I ended up having an epiphany. I knew how I wanted the game to end in general, but never knew how to make it into an interesting scene, or how to portray this idea in game. Weirdly, this songs structure, from build up, to the pause of the drums around 2:50, to the cresendo, seems to have given me a massive burst of inspiration. We find it in weird places yea? Anyways, not much else to say. Stay well.
My intention with this blog is to more seriously write down how I feel as I pursue one of my projects more. I don't have a name, so assume it's name is "Project Vellar" as that will be the name of the city it takes place in. If by chance one day, it gains any form of traction, my hope is this can serve as a cool archive. I've always enjoyed seeing creative minds have a well constructed history, so you can see how they felt at certain times, what troubled them, what excited them, etc. I'll do what I can to update once a month, just developments I had when writing, my experience when I start trying to develop, and everything else focused around it. It's a dev blog basically, dev blogs are fun. P.S. It's homestuck day. Ok well, the second homestuck day, 4/13 is behind us. Is starting this in 6/12 a good sign? I don't know..